You know how my “one little word” for this year is “goodness?” Well, as you can imagine, at first I struggled to find the “goodness” in my daughter’s Type 1 Diabetes diagnosis. I won’t lie. It was hard. I went through all of the emotions I’m sure that any parent goes through when you hear a diagnosis like that. I was sad, scared and angry. I didn’t like feeling that way, but I knew it was a process and I needed to allow myself to feel what I was feeling – no matter what.
It was good to get it out, work through it, pray to God about it and I knew He would bring me that peace I was searching for. I knew He would and He did. Sure there are still times when I am sad – like when Caylin says to me out of the blue, “Mommy, I don’t want to have diabetes. Why did God give it to me?”
And sometimes I’m scared – like when she had a blood sugar of 34 last week and it freaked me out. Ugh. Sometimes I still get angry too – like when I see her cringe when I go to stick her with a needle or she asks me why I’m counting out the cheerios that I’m giving to her. I’m mad she has to live a life like that, but then I remember the “goodness” that has come from it all – the goodness that IS her life and then I am ok.
There is so much goodness in this – from the encouraging, sweet words from friends and even strangers … from all of the prayers that have been said on Caylin and my family’s behalf … from feeling God holding my hand and walking with us as we walk down this path He has laid out for us and our daughter … all of it has so much goodness in it. There will be more goodness to come out of it too – you know me – this is my cause now. I will raise money to help diabetes research, participate in the walks and fundraisers, volunteer to help other families in the future who embark on this journey because this is my path as well. I have been helped so much by other Mamas who are dealing with this same thing and I want to be that support for some other Mama in the future who needs me.
Another wonderful goodness that I’ve come across is what my sweet friend, Crystal is doing for Caylin and my family. She emailed me shortly after she found out and was so supportive and sweet. At first she asked if there was something she could do, but I hadn’t checked my email in a bit and the next email I got from her said, “I’m not going to wait for you to answer me, I AM going to do something” and so she generously and sweetly took the time out of her busy schedule to create a few kits to create a little fundraiser in honor of Caylin to help pay for some of the medical expenses that we have accrued since her diagnosis. Thankfully we do have insurance, but not everything is fully covered under it and with the ER visit, two days in ICU and another day in the hospital – it has been adding up, but she is worth every penny of it.
Here are the sweet kits that Crystal created for Caylin. She asked me if I wanted to create a little something as well so I created some sweet word art full of sweet quotes and sayings in honor of my daughter.
Here are the Kits for Caylin:
ALL money raised will go toward the medical bills that we have since Caylin’s diagnosis. Thank you so much in advance and thank you to my sweet friend, Crystal and for all of the goodness that is overflowing from this hard and difficult life change. God is good ALL of the time and I am so thankful for all of you, my sweet blog friends.
Speaking of Crystal, since she has been so sweet to do that for my family, I wanted to mention her SUPER CUTE new kits that she has out now. Check these out:
And look at this cute freebie:
To purchase any (and all) of the above and to pick up that freebie – head to Crystal’s blog HERE.
Sigh. Yep, there is so much goodness in life and so much goodness in this VERY long blog post. Thanks for reading if you’ve made it this far. Thank you so much. I mean it. Love and hugs to you all…